Last week I shared how God’s timing is not usually our timing and how we are finally moving close to our family again.

We are moving at a PERFECT time, however the biggest concern at first was that I just started a new, full time, fantastic job.

Our plan was that I would work full time until 8 or 9 months pregnant with our first child, and then I would be home full time, hopefully forever.

I have dreamed and longed for the day that I would stay at home full time.

I have explored MANY different ideas of working from home but none of them were viable enough for me to quit my full time job, especially one that I actually do love (I work at a Christian college) while trying to save for a home and pay off our student loans.

So I have worked full time and have been SO thankful that I had a full time job and that we could pay our bills, and I realize how fortunate and blessed we have been. The Lord is good.

But with this move coming up, I am obviously losing my job. We are moving 6 hours away with no colleges in the area, let alone Christian colleges. My experience and knowledge lies in working at a college. I have worked at two different Christian colleges for nearly 4 years. So I began contemplating what possible job I could get. I assumed I would be searching for a job for months trying to get something…secretary somewhere maybe??

As we stressed about this and how I would find a job, my sweet husband approached me and told me that he doesn’t want me working. I have made some money online and have planned to expand this and will be home once we have kids anyway (which will hopefully be soon), so very firmly and gently he said he does not want me working.

I battled this at first…But we NEED the money! And won’t it feel like I’m wasting my time? If I can help contribute to our family and save for a house, shouldn’t I?? And for the last 3 years of our marriage, that answer was YES. For us, me working the past 3 years has been the right answer.

But now? Now I am embarking on a new journey. Now I am finally launching a design business this summer. Now I am going to be able to do all those things I haven’t had time for. Now I can fully embrace the role God designed me for and what delights my heart, being a full time homemaker.

I am scared at the idea and beyond excited for it. It is taking ALL of my energy to try and stay focused at my full time job for the next two weeks while dreaming of what is just around the corner.

I have always mentioned to my husband in passing that I would love to stay home full time before kids…but the answer has always been the same. We can’t. We can’t afford it yet.

But now? God has blessed my husband with a promotion. And God has blessed me with the ability to work from home.

The Lord is so good and we are excited for this next step in our marriage and our life. 2 months ago we could have never anticipated this coming up…but with a simple phone call…our world was turned upside down and the Lord is blessing us and making plans for us that we could never have imagined.

My heart is so full this week as I marvel at all that God has given to us. Praise be to HIM

The Lord is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation; this is my God, and I will praise him,  my father’s God, and I will exalt him. ~ Exodus 15:2

Update: The Lord is so good! About two weeks after posting this article, we found out we were pregnant with our first baby!! A couple months later, we found out we were having twins! ALL in his perfect timing 🙂